it's the little things that get me - something as small as seeing your pregnancy journal on the dresser, that breaks my soul and brings me to tears. it's not seeing your ashes everyday when i wake up, or seeing your face every time i look at your dad. it's not even looking at photos… Continue reading the little things
Anybody who was around for our first pregnancy knows that our first son was nicknamed Nugget. His full story can be found under the "Our Sons" dropdown. Now, nine months after losing him, Jason & I have finally given our first son a proper name - Noah. Why? What a loaded question. First I'll address… Continue reading Naming Noah
But unfortunately, patience is not a virtue that I possess quite yet. I've always been an impatient person, and I've definitely gotten worse since I lost Omie. I was in a rush to get home and to get back to school, to follow up with my doctors and figure out exactly what went wrong and… Continue reading Patience is a Virtue?
I love that Jason was so happy from the first positive pregnancy test, even knowing things might not work out. I love how excited he got when talking about his plans for Omie, all the things they'd do together. I love the way Jason fought for Omie's life, never giving up. I love how he… Continue reading love love love
I believe all loss parents experience guilt, in some form or another, regardless of how their loss occurred. As a parent, you are responsible for bringing your children into the world, raising them, protecting them. So when you lose a child, regardless of the circumstances, you feel guilty. You feel that somehow their death is… Continue reading Truth Tuesday – Guilt
It's really shitty to feel like you have to put trigger warnings on your entire reality after pregnancy/baby loss. Societal stigma forces so many parents to suffer their losses in silence, and prevents the rest of us from sharing cherished stories, pictures, etc. of our little ones. I've seen it everywhere, all across social media,… Continue reading Trigger Warnings
Oh yes yes yes, I have *always* had anger issues. I get angry when people are late, I get angry when my dog pees on the floor, I get angry when people throw the cheap cliches at my losses (yes, I am young, and yes, I can "try again, but no, that doesn't fix the… Continue reading Truth Tuesday – Anger